so the closer I get to 40, the more I act like 80 ... meaning that I no longer seem to care much what I say or how it might come across, so long as I am honouring in my speech and true to myself. scary.
like this afternoon ... I was at a hotel meeting for a homeschool curriculum ordering thing when suddenly I heard this woman telling another woman, both shoppers, that she doesn't really need "all this stuff" and has she ever heard of Sonlight? the one woman was shopping for her second year of homeschooling, the other woman was going to be entering her eleventh and was simply picking up some supplementary stuff, you know, to sort of round things out and feel like she was accomplishing things for once. some curriculum makes you feel that way, no matter how boring it really is or how much busywork is actually involved, but I digress. the second year mom kept writing titles down like easy grammar and the learning house while the eleven year mom seemed to get more and more confident in her speech and more and more passionate about the topic in general. at some point I, I mean *eleven year mom* apologized for possibly speaking out of turn but two year mom stopped her, touched her arm even, and thanked her for saying all that she had, telling her "you know, I needed that today". two year mom asked eleven year mom for her phone number, wondering if she could possibly come over tomorrow and look at some other options for homeschooling that weren't so, well ... you know. eleven year mom smiled big
made her meager purchases
went over to the bridge for a lunch of pb and j
hugged her boys.
this is why I homeschool.